Introduction
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Welcome to FAT (feelings and thoughts). I took a lot of time and energy debating if Iwould call the website "FAT", and came to the conclusion that this was a truthfull honest admission of how my eating disorder has always been for me my Feelings and Thoughts = FAT.

For 37 years I have had this compulsion, and have lived with a cunning, baffling, life threatning disease. When I was a child living with this condition I was in the minority. I observe children today and sadly see childhood obesity is not in the minority any more.

My disease led me down many self destructive paths, masking pain of isolation, fear, despair, sadness, and a huge empty void that I felt I had to feed every day. All the time I was looking for a quick fix solution that took me down roads of diet clubs, herbal healings, diet pills, self help groups and eventually surgery.

All the procudures that I tried treated the symptoms and not the cause. I had read everything about bulimia and anoroxia, but nothing was available about compulsive overeating as the medics were still in the dark about compulsive / emotional eating, just as I was.

This led me to write my story of what my life had been like with this disease, and all the feelings and thoughts came spilling out like a river bursting it banks.

My book is entitled - Underneath The Flesh - My life as a compulsive overeater and morbid obesity sufferer. An extract of the book is listed below:

AS FEATURED IN 'THE DAILY RECORD' AND 'THAT'S LIFE' MAGAZINE!

Description

'Underneath the Flesh' is the brave, honest and shocking account of a lifetime battle against morbid obesity and compulsive overeating. Betrayed by her abusive father and grieving for her late mother it was almost inevitable that a young Sandra would develop an addiction to conceal her pain. For Sandra the addiction was food. At her largest Sandra weighed 28 stone; her weight became a shield, protecting her from the grief she felt for a lost childhood. As well as her affection-less, austere and often brutal childhood, Sandra recounts the traumatic birth of her son Edward, her failed and loveless marriange and her desperate attempts to lose weight and beat her compulsion. Despite all these problems and a life of true hardship and pain, Sandra remains positive. This book ends on a note of hope, a light at the end of the tunnel and a victory for mind over matter. At a time when obesity is rarely out of the headlines, this is an extraordinarily strong, poignant and timely book.

Underneath the Flesh By Alexandria Gallagher-Mearns - available at www.chipmunkpublishing.co.uk.

"Compulsive overeating or binge eating is a common eating disorder in which people eat and eat, even after they are completely full. Compulsive overeaters often feel “out of control” with food, so much that they literally cannot stop eating. This problem is different from bulimia nervosa (where people binge, but then try “purge” food out of their bodies by vomiting or some other means). Compulsive overeaters don’t “purge”.

Why does this happen?

The reasons for this disorder aren’t completely well understood. Some people seem to rely on food as a way of coping with stress or emotional problems. Overeating may give them a sense of comfort. Most compulsive overeaters think a lot about food and their weight, which often leads to a cycle of dieting and bingeing. While on the diet, they feel hungry and deprived, which helps lead to the next binge. Some people see compulsive overeating as an addiction, similar to an addiction to drugs. Whatever the reasons, bingeing, isn’t good for the body."